Free Write (babble) on Columbus

Christopher Columbus Free-Write

By: Natalie Partna

My thoughts and feelings of Columbus are; he was a jerk, he was mean, he was selfish, he lied a lot, he wasn’t very bright, and I wouldn’t want to be his friend.

But my other opinions on him was; kudos for trying to get to India, I liked how he didn’t care that people thought he was crazy, he had probably been through a lot in his time. You were decently patient having to be on a ship for a long time.

I at first totally abandoned my belief of everyone being wise and smart in their own way when I read that he would subjugate all these people to being slaves when they were so willing to help, were resourceful, and great allies. But I don’t really have a right to judge do I? I tend to judge people but I try not to.

Two things that stuck out to me was, he caused genocide, and that is a big, powerful, sad, emotional thing. The second thing that stuck out to me was, Columbus thought that people who trusted easily and shared things and offered things were stupid, he could have accepted their gifts of kindness not take them all as slaves and kill their people off.

I learned that Columbus did NOT in fact discover America. It was the carribeans. Also I learned that Columbus caused genocide, that’s a horrible thing to do. He wasn’t a very nice guy.

The college version is important to read and understand because it holds more truth than the elementary school one. I also think that they are both equally useful. I think the elementary one should hold more truth though, and a little bit more detailed and story like, not pictures and sentences.

The human casualties did bring us to where we are now in some way. I don’t know how, nor do I think I ever will. I also don’t know what went on back then in full detail. I wasn’t there. I also haven’t been in Columbus’s head, so for all I know, he could be a guy who made bad choices here and there, but was always trying to be good. But also a little selfish. I don’t try to regret what happens in the past, I try to understand the best I can and learn from that experience and move forward. So I believe it was necessary for this world. It brought us to where we are now. Though I wish I knew more about the people that died.

I also don’t know if we’d be here if those people never died. I never will, so I try to accept that, understand that the best I can and move on. So, I think we may or may not, but in my opinion, it doesn’t matter. Their deaths do, their story does, but trying to imagine what would happen if they never died, it isn’t going to change anything, so, I don’t know, and I personally don’t care if we would or wouldn’t be. We are where we are when we are and we should be thankful and thoughtful that we are alive, and that they aren’t. Just another thing to be thankful for on thanksgiving. We are ALIVE. That’s all that matters... to me anyway.

Class Assignment

Vices - Memphis May Fire - Musical Self Portrait

By: Natalie Partna

Lyrics:

Drowning myself every night

Me vs Me has always been my biggest fight

I've been so confused for so long

And the answers always seem so far out of sight

So, I fill it up, fill it up one more time

So that When everything is wrong at least I still feel right.

I'm in a tunnel but I can't see light!

I just wanna feel whole again

So I can let you in

I just wanna feel whole again

I just wanna feel whole, Oh!

Where is my self control!

Where is my self control!

(Woah-oh)

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me

Who is this person in the mirror I see

And I have come so far, thought I was so strong

The truth is I just fed myself a lie

For too long.

I never thought this would be me...

But now I'm on the verge of self destruction

How could this happen to me!

I've never been the type to run from anything

Run from anything!

So sick and tired of wondering where My morals have gone

My father didn't raise me to become this

Where did I go wrong!

There is not much left of me

I can't feel the ground beneath my feet

There is not much left of me!

I let everyone around me down

And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle just to block out the sound

God I need you now!

I've been thinking this could be the end of me

Who is this person in the mirror I see

And I have come so far, thought I was so strong

The truth is I just fed myself a lie

For too long.

This is my vice, this is me weak.

I need your love to erase this doubt.

I need your hand to pull me out!

Sometimes I feel like I will never learn

Cause the bottles always there when I have nowhere else to turn

Will I ever learn?

Will I ever learn!

I take another sip

The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit.

This can't be all there is

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me

Who is this person in the mirror I see

And I have come so far, thought I was so strong

The truth is I just fed myself a lie

For too long.

And the only one to blame is me

Who have I become!

This is my desperate shout!

Pull me out!

Pull me out!

God I need you now!

Artist/Band is Memphis May Fire.

The song is called “Vices”.

1. I am loud and daring.

2. I am lonely and want to feel love.

3. I am sometimes so low I wish I put an end to it.

4. I feel better when I believe in something that is not myself.

5. I can’t will not believe in myself.

6. I don’t know who I am anymore.

7. i don’t understand anything anymore.

8. I feel frustrated and angry.

9. I feel like I’m living in a stream of lies and that I’ll never get out.

10. I feel cold and lifeless.(and  I’ve lost self control)

11. I feel lost and hopeless, so I lose myself.

1. Screamo Music is loud and defiant sounding.

2. “I just wanna feel whole again” also, “I need your love to erase this doubt. I need your hand to pull me out!”

3 “But now I'm on the verge of self destruction” and “And I have come so far, thought I was so strong”

4. “I've been so confused for so long, and the answers always seem so far out of sight “

5. “And I've been thinking this could be the end of me “

6 “Who is this person in the mirror I see“

7. “The truth is I just fed myself a lie”

8. “God I need you now!”

9. “Who have I become! This is my desperate shout! “

10. “How could this happen to me! I've never been the type to run from anything“

11. “Cause the bottles always there when I have nowhere else to turn” and “I take another sip, The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit. “ also, “I let everyone around me down, And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle just to block out the sound, God I need you now! “

I feel like this song shows meaning, and feelings, I guess that plays a part in why I love it so much. I mean, have you ever felt so frustrated you just wanted to scream. That’s what screamo is about, letting out all that frustration and anger and letting it all out, while sharing your feelings. People say screamo isn’t music, I disagree, music is feeling, music is love, music is understanding, that is all screamo is, they probably just cancel it out because they just think it’s pointless screaming, it’s really not, it’s meaningful, and there are words that are hidden in that screaming, you just have to pay attention. Kind of like a hidden gem in a mine of pointless rock I guess. Not that anything in this song is unimportant, it wouldn’t be what it is if you took the slightest thing out of it. This song makes me feel important and and that my voice is important. I am kind of a lonely person because I don’t get too close to many people because I’m afraid they’ll hurt me. But this song, these words, this frustration, this anger, this is what keeps me going. This is what gives me a reason. Music is what keeps me going, music is what keeps me here, music is what keeps me alive. I don’t trust myself, I don’t trust my tongue. I don’t trust period. Music is getting me there, music is getting me to trust again. Hopefully it will eventually work and I can learn to love and learn to trust.

Update

I'm not a lesbian, haha, I was mad at someone, so yeah, that doesn't make that statement okay, and that was wrong, so yeah, I love supporting people, I think everyone has a right to be who they are and being gay is okay cause ya know, they were born that way. :)

Music 1

Party Poison by My Chemical Romance
"It makes you feel like your on top of the world and that everyone else are against us so we need to burn their evil nations to the ground." -Me
"It makes me want to go out in bright red lipstick and high heeled leather boots and a leather jacket and burn shit down" -Mimi
The War Against Ourselves by Sew Intricate and Joel Faviere
First off I want to make it clear that I believe Sew Intricate and Joel Faviere is the same guy, just with a band.
This song is about suicide and self harm awareness. Now this is a sensitive subject right now because I understand self harm and I try to help people cope with it. I'm even dealing with it myself.
This song ends with the lyrics; "Listen to me scream and shout, but do not say a word"
The meaning of this lyric is know what I'm doing to myself but don't get me in trouble, because I know it's wrong. The chorus's lyrics are really strong and give out a lot of emotion "All these scars, from the war against myself, I'm a walking hell" it's tragic really, it shows and tells so much emotion. This whole song truthfully could be broken down and explained, but I have a long list so I'm going to move on for now.
Little Lion Man by Tonight Alive
"But it was not your fault but mine, and it was your heart on the line, I really fucked it up this time, Didn't I my dear?" These lyrics are so powerful. It was blaming something on herself. It reminds me of a mistake I made three years ago, with a guy. I feel guilt, love, pain, and forgiveness, I wish I could fix it but I can't.
King For A Day by Pierce the Veil
"I take a look up at the sky and I see red, red for the cancer, red for the wealthy, red for the drink that's mixed with suicide, everything red" that makes me think of how much red has been spilled in this world. "Red for the cancer" meaning so many people die from cancer, "red for the wealthy" destroying our economy and killing people who starve to death everyday, "red for the drink that's mixed with suicide" the suicide caused by bullying, by putting pain on another. "Everything red" meaning the world is red, so much red has covered this place that there is no way to clean it, the world is stained red.
Vices by Memphis May Fire
"I've been thinking this could be the end of me, who is this person in the mirror I see? I have come so far, thought I was so strong, the truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long. I never thought this would be me, but now I'm on the verge of self destruction, how could this happen to me?" Three words describe this: Suicide, self harm. Self destruction being self harm, the end of me being suicide.
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It holds so much meaning, so many people out in the world today don't pause and smell the roses anymore, listen to the lyrics, the pain, the truth, the lies, the freedom in music, in writing, in being human. Take a lyric from eight of your favorite songs, I dare you, figure out what they mean to you. If you can find a meaning. Most people nowadays are more interested in the sounds, that's okay, but the lyrics are the telling of someones story.

In the scene

http://www.meetme.com/member/88344205 Dating Scene
Going lesbo cause most guys I've dated are assholes

Girl Power At It's Finest

 Don't add people you haven't gotten to know first on chatroulette.com I learned that the hard way



[1/12/2014 9:43:59 PM] Kyle Justice: awww, okay, then maybe I can call in a bit
[1/12/2014 9:44:29 PM] Brad Layton: Ok haha wear some thing sexy ! 😘
[1/12/2014 9:44:51 PM] Kyle Justice: You wouldn't even be able to see me haha
[1/12/2014 9:45:02 PM] Brad Layton: Why not ?
[1/12/2014 9:45:15 PM] Kyle Justice: cause I can't video call
[1/12/2014 9:45:28 PM] Brad Layton: Why not
[1/12/2014 9:46:10 PM] Kyle Justice: cause thats when I was with char, I don't have a webcam :( But I'm probably going to be able to video chat in a few days :)
[1/12/2014 9:46:44 PM] Brad Layton: oh ok
[1/12/2014 9:46:49 PM] Kyle Justice: ya
[1/12/2014 9:47:01 PM] Brad Layton: well my dicks hard so im going to go wank
[1/12/2014 9:47:10 PM] Kyle Justice: have fun
[1/12/2014 9:47:16 PM] Brad Layton: i will ha
[12:34:03 AM] Kyle Justice: hai
[12:46:40 AM] Kyle Justice: ya online
[12:59:01 AM] Brad Layton: Yeah
[12:59:21 AM] Kyle Justice: hows it going?
[12:59:33 AM] Brad Layton: Good ha you
[12:59:40 AM] Kyle Justice: good, tired
[12:59:55 AM] Brad Layton: Oh ok you alone ?
[1:05:09 AM] Brad Layton: I'm wanking sorry
[1:05:15 AM] Kyle Justice: oh okay then
[1:05:31 AM] Brad Layton: You can see if you do stuff ?
[1:05:42 AM] Kyle Justice: What?
[1:06:05 AM] Brad Layton: Show me your boobs and ill show you
[1:06:44 AM] Kyle Justice: I'm good, I got a girlfriend
[1:07:06 AM] Brad Layton: Ok so your not gunna do anything can I delete you
[1:07:35 AM] Kyle Justice: what the fuck I thought you'd want to at least be friends but you just use women for fuck or masterbation buddies? That's low
[1:08:08 AM] Brad Layton: Haha you decide
[1:08:42 AM] Kyle Justice: You know I thought you were cute and nice and all and your all like, "I'm so proud of my dick you want to see it?" like what the actual fuck, this is why I'm going lesbian, cause of guys like you. Asshole.
[1:09:14 AM] Brad Layton: I don't give a fuck
[1:10:42 AM] Kyle Justice: oh okay then, you didn't learn a damn thing, thats fine, I figured something so inspiring and powerful wouldn't teach you anything. I'm not showing you my tits too see your dick. I mean really, If I wanted to see a dick I'd just watch gay porn since it's funny and entertaining, not watch you wank yourself out of bordom.
[1:12:27 AM] Brad Layton: Coolio your lesbian cause no guy would ever put up with you ha
[1:12:27 AM] Kyle Justice: Also, I get more pussy than you do so I'm fucking proud you little bastard. Your the type of bastard that deserves to die in a fucking hole okay you little weasel that looks like Zac Efron? And Zac is unattractive. Besides, when I was bi I liked men, not horny teenage boys.
[1:13:20 AM] Kyle Justice: And I'm lesbian because guys like you grow up to be rapists and I don't want to know a future rapist, I'm the breakerupper not the breakupee
[1:14:04 AM] Kyle Justice: In the US by the way women don't fucking kneel at boys feet and do what they're told, we run this motherfucking town
[1:14:30 AM] Kyle Justice: Your worse than scum you know
[1:15:28 AM] Kyle Justice: You fucking piss me off, guys like you running around online with your dicks hanging out looking for horny girls who live in North Korea
I'm adding you to my blog by the way to prove that there are douches out there
[1:24:28 AM] Brad Layton: I can see you are loving life ! So positive ha and so annoying
[1:26:35 AM] Kyle Justice: thanks, I'm not enjoying it as much as others but okay, I see you read my profile I guess and thats okay, I don't really care. I'm not as positive as you may think though, I hate that people assume that about me it's annoying. Yes I ramble, yes I'm annoying, yes I'm a lesbian. Oh well, that's me, I'm also a lot of other things I'm proud of and not really proud of. I could really do better, and this is my first step of becoming better by taking out the trash.
In case your brain is not functioning correctly since you were dropped a lot as a young child, the trash I'm taking out is you, and not on a date, to the garbage can then to the gargage dump to get composted into heaps of manure to be used in grass fertilizer for cows and then eaten by cows who is eaten then by people who shit you out later and it ends up in the ocean, your stink killing all the fish
[1:54:54 AM] Kyle Justice: damn you Brad Layton
[3:16:01 AM] Brad Layton: Fuck you talk a lot of shit woman
[3:19:33 AM] Kyle Justice: What the hell do you think you little motherfucking douche of a whore. You must be such a disapointment to your mother. You are such a lame, horrible, embarrassing human being on this planet that needs to rot in a pit of fiery hell. Fuck you bitch. Suck my dick you little motherfucker. Youre a disgrace in the sight of god and your a didsgrace in life. 1 tip, don't piss me the fuck off. Don't play with fire or you get born. Hell hast no fury like a woman scorned
[3:19:52 AM] Kyle Justice: And I know I talk a lot on here, I usually don't though
[3:21:14 AM] Brad Layton: Wow no one must like you if you have to say this much about someone that you don't even know haha
[3:22:05 AM] Kyle Justice: good for you, you think you know so much about me when you know so little
Besides, why are you judging me when we both have no right to judge each other. If we both can choose to make bad or good choices, how can we judge when we make either?
 [3:23:47 AM] Brad Layton: Can you stop talking to me ! Your fucking weird
[3:24:03 AM] Kyle Justice: You spelled you
[3:24:08 AM] Kyle Justice: *you're wrong
[3:24:31 AM] Kyle Justice: You must be illiterate or of illiterate parents
[3:24:45 AM] Brad Layton: Haha I remember when I did that ! I was 12
[3:25:18 AM] Kyle Justice: I tried being nice by saying we have no right to judge, but now your pissing me off. What do you remember doing what? You must be disillusional
[3:25:37 AM] Brad Layton: Block me then
[3:25:48 AM] Kyle Justice: Na, this is too entertaining
[3:25:52 AM] Kyle Justice: *nah
[3:26:41 AM] Kyle Justice: you remember doing what when you were twelve?
[3:26:50 AM] Kyle Justice: masterbating on camera too?
[3:27:44 AM] Brad Layton: Nah I get pussy for days now ha In blocking you cause you have no other life but to try make someone else's day bad ! When really I don't give a fuck
[3:28:00 AM] Kyle Justice: kay, bye forever

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