Class Assignment

Vices - Memphis May Fire - Musical Self Portrait

By: Natalie Partna

Lyrics:

Drowning myself every night

Me vs Me has always been my biggest fight

I've been so confused for so long

And the answers always seem so far out of sight

So, I fill it up, fill it up one more time

So that When everything is wrong at least I still feel right.

I'm in a tunnel but I can't see light!

I just wanna feel whole again

So I can let you in

I just wanna feel whole again

I just wanna feel whole, Oh!

Where is my self control!

Where is my self control!

(Woah-oh)

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me

Who is this person in the mirror I see

And I have come so far, thought I was so strong

The truth is I just fed myself a lie

For too long.

I never thought this would be me...

But now I'm on the verge of self destruction

How could this happen to me!

I've never been the type to run from anything

Run from anything!

So sick and tired of wondering where My morals have gone

My father didn't raise me to become this

Where did I go wrong!

There is not much left of me

I can't feel the ground beneath my feet

There is not much left of me!

I let everyone around me down

And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle just to block out the sound

God I need you now!

I've been thinking this could be the end of me

Who is this person in the mirror I see

And I have come so far, thought I was so strong

The truth is I just fed myself a lie

For too long.

This is my vice, this is me weak.

I need your love to erase this doubt.

I need your hand to pull me out!

Sometimes I feel like I will never learn

Cause the bottles always there when I have nowhere else to turn

Will I ever learn?

Will I ever learn!

I take another sip

The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit.

This can't be all there is

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me

Who is this person in the mirror I see

And I have come so far, thought I was so strong

The truth is I just fed myself a lie

For too long.

And the only one to blame is me

Who have I become!

This is my desperate shout!

Pull me out!

Pull me out!

God I need you now!

Artist/Band is Memphis May Fire.

The song is called “Vices”.

1. I am loud and daring.

2. I am lonely and want to feel love.

3. I am sometimes so low I wish I put an end to it.

4. I feel better when I believe in something that is not myself.

5. I can’t will not believe in myself.

6. I don’t know who I am anymore.

7. i don’t understand anything anymore.

8. I feel frustrated and angry.

9. I feel like I’m living in a stream of lies and that I’ll never get out.

10. I feel cold and lifeless.(and  I’ve lost self control)

11. I feel lost and hopeless, so I lose myself.

1. Screamo Music is loud and defiant sounding.

2. “I just wanna feel whole again” also, “I need your love to erase this doubt. I need your hand to pull me out!”

3 “But now I'm on the verge of self destruction” and “And I have come so far, thought I was so strong”

4. “I've been so confused for so long, and the answers always seem so far out of sight “

5. “And I've been thinking this could be the end of me “

6 “Who is this person in the mirror I see“

7. “The truth is I just fed myself a lie”

8. “God I need you now!”

9. “Who have I become! This is my desperate shout! “

10. “How could this happen to me! I've never been the type to run from anything“

11. “Cause the bottles always there when I have nowhere else to turn” and “I take another sip, The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit. “ also, “I let everyone around me down, And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle just to block out the sound, God I need you now! “

I feel like this song shows meaning, and feelings, I guess that plays a part in why I love it so much. I mean, have you ever felt so frustrated you just wanted to scream. That’s what screamo is about, letting out all that frustration and anger and letting it all out, while sharing your feelings. People say screamo isn’t music, I disagree, music is feeling, music is love, music is understanding, that is all screamo is, they probably just cancel it out because they just think it’s pointless screaming, it’s really not, it’s meaningful, and there are words that are hidden in that screaming, you just have to pay attention. Kind of like a hidden gem in a mine of pointless rock I guess. Not that anything in this song is unimportant, it wouldn’t be what it is if you took the slightest thing out of it. This song makes me feel important and and that my voice is important. I am kind of a lonely person because I don’t get too close to many people because I’m afraid they’ll hurt me. But this song, these words, this frustration, this anger, this is what keeps me going. This is what gives me a reason. Music is what keeps me going, music is what keeps me here, music is what keeps me alive. I don’t trust myself, I don’t trust my tongue. I don’t trust period. Music is getting me there, music is getting me to trust again. Hopefully it will eventually work and I can learn to love and learn to trust.